Musings for 5/9/2016

I almost wrote 2013. Odd date to write eh? Not really if you follow spiritual circles that believe that we went into some sort of limbo at the end of 2012. I wonder if symbolically, that means we have finally started the clock again? Well that isn’t what I wanted to write about, but it is something to ponder.

I guess to sum up what I want to write about today, maybe it’s divergent paths. If you know me well you know that I don’t like endings, finality, good byes either. There is nothing I have ever truly left behind in the sense that if it serves my needs or my joy later that I won’t pick it back up again. You can never rule anything out in other words. How would I know what I am going to need or want 3 years from now? I can’t. I can assume but never truly know. Well I am going around the world aren’t I. Apologies for that. It seemed relevant when I started typing it.

I have obviously had to deal with endings. Friendships end, people pass on (bodies die), people move away, etc. Over the weekend though, I had a dream where someone I care about was going off on a different path in such a way that I can not follow. That really bothers me. It’s a Soul decision, not a Human Personality decision (ego), and even in the dream I knew I should not interfere. I had the ability to, but I did not because I knew.

You keep hearing me say that I choose Love, and that is the side of the fence that I am on. The other side is Fear. It doesn’t matter what the symptom of the condition is, the condition is fear. I choose the Love condition. The wheat is separating from the chaff now and it’s more apparent than ever in our polarized world. Assuming we are here to learn something, or experience something, we have the free will to choose and thus take one of two paths.

Maybe there are multiple paths. I have asked my guidance more than a hundred times how I am supposed to raise my vibration (to Love and Joy) when I am so damn sad. Sadness is on the fear spectrum. It indicates that I don’t truly believe I will see Erin again…yes still working on that full fledged belief thing but hey, this is a challenge guys. I have gotten advice from people and I’ve been told to raise my fricking vibration from others and I have bitched and moaned and I’ve also pulled up my big girl panties and tried. I have no idea if anyone will take pity on me if I am “in the chaff” due to my “situation” but I suspect not. I have to take responsibility for my own Self and that means decoding this puzzle. It means finding Joy and rising to the occasion. And folks, it sucks.

But that doesn’t mean I won’t keep trying. For others on the negative spectrum, including the person I dreamed about, decide what you want/desire now and then make the firm decision to get there. I can give you all of the advice in the world but I can’t make you get on the road and walk it. The good news is that I heard vividly as I woke up from my dream the words to Stairway to Heaven…”Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run, there’s still time to change the road you’re on.” Still time…and I bet your guides, guardian angels, whatever/whoever…I bet they are sending you some encouragement if you will just be open to receive it. No one wants anyone left behind, not me and not them. But we will honor your decision to stay with the chaff if necessary.

Today is that Mercury transit, so consider me your messenger, inspired by Mercury. Just choose Love.

Blessings, Namaste, Nutsmaste, #missingerin and #LovingErin