Musings for 6/20/2016

For the last several years, Erin and I would color beautiful mandalas for the Summer Solstice and then go spend some time outside in nature. We would read summer solstice stories that almost always involved fairies and other elemental creatures, and of course their gratitude for the life-giving light of the sun. I don’t do any of those things anymore, but I would be remiss if I didn’t recognize this magically energetic time of year.

From a metaphysical standpoint, this is a time of immense growth possibilities. Sometimes we call it a portal opening and closing, or a gate. The idea is that just as the “veil” is thin for instance during the time of Halloween, so it is also during solstices and equinoxes. It allows us some extra energy movement, as well as perhaps some help from “above,” in becoming better versions of ourselves.

For some on an intense spiritual path, the energy can be overwhelming near a solstice or equinox. Its as if it beams directly at us, making us tired, feel bad, etc. Really it is purifying and cleansing our bodies as we imbibe the pure white light energy coming from the creator source. Ok, now I’ve gone all off in the clouds on everyone. Let me come back down to earth LOL.

So yesterday was Father’s Day. I know at least one of you wants to know…yes, it sucked. Sucked a big one (you insert what you want for “one.” I have several entries for that.). There was at least a couple of people who still don’t seem to understand that while you may still celebrate it, we do not. BECAUSE IT IS PAINFUL TO US, LIKE BEING ON A BED OF NAILS. Or maybe having your fingernails ripped out. I realize that not everyone is cognizant of being selfish. But next time it gets brought up, I plan to tell you – again – how painful holidays are for us. I’ll do it politely, but I plan to tell you.

I also explained to someone else last week that going to a holiday, or family, function would be akin to being tortured the entire time. That person understood what I was saying but so many do not. I really don’t know why you can’t hear or understand that I am in pain (those of you who can’t). I’m in pain, Shaun is in pain. Period. We will not be saying yes to doing holidays etc. Sorry but that’s how it is.

Now that I’ve gotten that out of the way, the Solstice energy has certainly shined a light on these feelings for me. I do need to express them, and will do so as kindly as I can. I don’t want to lash out and hurt any of you any more than I would want you to hurt me. And I can’t run from them either. So here they are, for all of you to see, ugly as the light hits them. I know they are ugly. I’m sorry you have to see them but somehow I feel it is necessary.

And here I am going all existential, so I will just leave it as Happy Solstice to you now. Blessings, namaste, nutmaste, I Love you, #missingerin and #LovingErin <3