Well, I typed year 3018. My last week has been so busy it’s possible I could be in 3018 and not even know it. I told someone it was too late to turn in their February expense report and didn’t realize it until today. I honestly thought February was 2 months ago at the time. Maybe I am jumping time lines? If so, I want a more interesting take on it like the show Sliders or Quantum Leap. LOL!! Or maybe I don’t. They got themselves into a bit of trouble here and there.
So far 2018 has been an experience of investing in me. And I have made progress, so perhaps I have leaped forward a thousand fold. I have eased back into feeling confident about my job and skills. I’m pretty sharp at my job, but have lost the confidence in myself and thus found I was selling myself short. I also have been evaluating my worth, and I find that I am afraid to affirm it. That’s nuts eh? I know…no rational explanation for it. I fear that others don’t value me. Well that’s something I am learning to trust and have the wherewithal to get over.
I have also been mulling over what a friend asked me about a month ago. How does someone like you (meaning, spiritually minded etc.) work in a 3D job? I reflected back on how many people I was able to mentor, help personally, the relationships, and in a flash that dwarfed my actual job duties. Put that together with me being good at my job and I guess I have a pretty decent scenario. I want to do that again. I’m ready and willing. And if I have to work (and I do!), I want to get compensated for it.
I haven’t had a raise since 2011. That is not all my company’s fault. Business fell away, my responsibilities dwindled, yet they took care of me during my times of need and kept me on. But it’s 2018 – there’s that 7 year / cycle. Time to be in integrity but not to settle. I think this time I can find that balance if I try hard enough.
I have had a whirlwind of a few weeks, and thought I would remember it all to share. But now I can’t! Maybe I’ll come back after more coffee.
#missingerin and love and blessings. <3
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nothing like those future lives we never wanted to sign up for, enh??? good thing i’m taking the entire loosh-farming system to the biggest galactic court ever sanctioned over this world for this subject…. watch the next year or 3 and boy oh boy are there going to be walls and curtains coming down!!!!!!! some of jthe biggest harvesters of human energy are those big dragon gods (not all dragons are nice, unfortunately) and its going to be quite a showdown between the good melchezideks/ashtars and the dark demon dragons who are farming the human race for pain energy and sadism…. this is going to make the OJ trial look like judge judy. 😉
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Keep working for the light Jason! Show them there is a better way! <3