Gratitude

You have to look really close, and maybe you still won’t see it, but there is a message in that “box” of sorts in the middle. I was in the shower on Wednesday morning and finished up. As I grabbed my towel, I had one of those 2 second lightening rounds of thoughts. The “box” has as clear as day, the letters EA inside of it. The E was clear but the A was crystal clear. EA? EA games? Other things I can’t remember. Then ah, Erin Alyssa.

I go through ebbs and flows, and I’ve really been in an ebb. It hurts. Still. And no, I’m not going to get over it. But she showed up right on time and gave me a message. She is still with us.

I am deeply grateful for this message and the others I receive. I saw her many times in dream state during the season of Samhain, or what we modern folks call Halloween. In one of those instances I know I wasn’t supposed to be wherever it was because she was surprised. I felt her coming up behind me and turned to greet her. She said how did you know? I told her I will always know. She was surprised I was even there. I had found my way to wherever she is and I wasn’t supposed to be there yet.

As I look around this year at the seemingly happy families, I realize that they have no idea what they have. I know this because I did not. They are thankful, but perhaps only for generic things. Family, food on their plates, insert your go-to here.

So I’m going to challenge you all to dive deeper. If you have to, imagine in full living color what it’s like to lose those that you love. And then feel the gratitude when you realize that it was all just your imagination. Use the experience to change your life and by doing so, changing the lives of others. In a world where we have become very unkind as a species in general, softening yourself to love and kindness has reverberations all over the world.

If you need help getting there, I recommend Matt Kahn. He thinks Love is the only answer, and so do I.

Love, blessings, and #missingerin <3