Nicole
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Sep 10
Woe
Funny that I typed “woe” as “wow.” Wow indeed, that I can possibly feel this much agony in a human body without being “physically sick.” I am in some sort of pain today. It built on yesterday I think, and honestly I woke up feeling pretty good compared, but then it just keeps getting worse. …
Sep 10
The Hamster
Or should I say, the Hampster. Erin always called her clothes hamper the hampster. As I was putting my own socks down the chute last night, I had to walk past her room and I thought of that. She had cute, silly nicknames for so many things. We had many funny stories about those to …
Sep 09
It Only Takes a Minute
For the last hour, I have struggled. I started off the day pretty well this time. I only cried for a little bit. Then I fixed me some food, which required me to go into the kitchen. The first thing I saw was the cat sitting on the table. That’s a spot she loves, and …
Sep 09
Pain to Peace, Parts 3 & 4
I wasn’t sure what I was going to write this morning, because I have some other thoughts swirling around, but I think they need more time to cook before they come out. Yet here I am. So on to the Pain to Peace section taken from Turning the Corner on Grief Street, by Terri Daniel… …
Sep 08
Thoughts Inspired by Baby Emily
Ah, what timing. As I begin typing this, a school bus arrives with the kids from next door, and just the idea that someone’s kids are coming home is downright painful for me. But that isn’t a reality that I can get away from, and I am glad their kids are safe and home. So …
Sep 08
Pain to Peace Pt. 2
I am not feeling so hot right now, which is why I picked up my “pen and paper” and got right to it this morning. The second point in the Pain to Peace chapter, is called We Invite In What We Would Usually Try to Avoid. Here is the sub text: “When faced with intense …
Sep 07
Pain to Peace, Theoretically
The title, Pain to Peace, is the title of a section of the book I mentioned yesterday (Turning the Corner on Grief Street by Terri Daniel). I read the entire book by the way already. It gave me some comfort, and it was constructive. She writes it from a higher perspective, so if you are …
Sep 06
The Hike and After
Well I took no pictures of my hike. I don’t know why but I completely forgot. It was hot, and I am out of shape and thus was sweaty and out of breath when I got to the place where I knew I was going to sit for awhile. I ended up sitting in the …
Sep 06
This Morning’s Thoughts
I forgot to post this picture yesterday, but as I was leaving my reiki appointment I passed a car that had a tag saying Butterfly (in tag code anyway). The reminders are nice, because I was darn sad all day yesterday. I don’t know why one day may be better than another. I am sad …
Sep 05
Terrible Transitions
I woke up around 4am to a dream, and a headache. I think the headache was sinus related, but the dream, gave me heartache. There was more to it than I remember, but I became consciously aware in the dream when I was riding in the back of a black SUV, being chauffeured by someone …