Nicole
Author's posts
Sep 04
Walking In Someone’s Shoes
I snagged this image from The Grief Toolbox, who clearly got it from Compassionate Friends, and posted it on FaceBook. When I saw it I thought, UGH, OK I have to address what has been going through my mind for the past hour or so. It’s time for me to do some emotional clearing and …
Sep 04
And, Back…
Boy did I wake up feeling sad today. The ugly feeling is back in my heart and pit of my stomach. I managed to sleep longer, not waking up thinking about how she is gone. But once I got fully awake the feeling hit me. And I am just so, so sad. I know, or …
Sep 03
Moving Into the New
I suppose that I am moving into the new energy of this month, the upcoming full moon of 9/9, and of Me. This morning my grief therapist told me that I was taking all of the right steps to move forward and she commended me for that. I forget her exact words, but I guess …
Sep 02
The Why’s
I wasn’t sure what I was going to write about today. I did not want to write about my tale of woe. I am tired of hearing it, but do understand that sometimes I am going to need to get it out. But I’m tired of hearing it. I have been sharing less of it …
Sep 01
Unchanged, Mostly
I managed to make it through yesterday and today, thanks to one of my cousins coming to visit me and keeping me occupied. That was nice, and it mostly kept my mind off of the elephant in the room. I have noticed that today I’ve developed a tremor in my right hand. Not only is …
Aug 31
Slow Path Forward
The good news is that something changed for me on Thursday of last week. I may have mentioned it. It is like the sadness and grief took on another tone, one perhaps more tolerable. I say that almost not believing it, because it isn’t any constant relief, but it is at least different. I have …
Aug 30
Musings Today
I am not sure why but as the day progresses, I notice I get deeply depressed. Maybe it is because in the course of a day, near the end of it is when a family sits down together. For dinner, to watch television, or play games, or whatever. My body, mind, and spirit knows at …
Aug 29
Fun Erin Video
Meow_Erin_Simone I still don’t know how to embed these things! Anyway, click the link and you will hear Erin and Simone meowing. We were likely on the way back from the movies, or maybe this past year’s Panoply. They always had a great time in the car, and sometimes sang the “Shine Bright Like a …
Aug 29
Crying for Others, Too
This morning I woke to look at FaceBook, and found that a friend and former co-worker’s son had died last night. He wasn’t a “little kid” but her son nonetheless, and I am very sorry for her. She came to Erin’s service and I immediately panicked, because I am not sure I can come to …
Aug 28
Barbie Life in the Dreamhouse
One of Erin’s favorite web shows was Barbie: Life in the Dreamhouse. You can find it at: http://www.barbie.com/en-us/videos/life-in-the-dreamhouse I have to admit that I liked watching this with her. It was completely silly, and they really captured the essence of Barbie and Ken’s personality (what you think it would be). I keep telling you Erin’s …