Sep 04
I snagged this image from The Grief Toolbox, who clearly got it from Compassionate Friends, and posted it on FaceBook. When I saw it I thought, UGH, OK I have to address what has been going through my mind for the past hour or so. It’s time for me to do some emotional clearing and …
Sep 04
Boy did I wake up feeling sad today. The ugly feeling is back in my heart and pit of my stomach. I managed to sleep longer, not waking up thinking about how she is gone. But once I got fully awake the feeling hit me. And I am just so, so sad. I know, or …
Sep 03
I suppose that I am moving into the new energy of this month, the upcoming full moon of 9/9, and of Me. This morning my grief therapist told me that I was taking all of the right steps to move forward and she commended me for that. I forget her exact words, but I guess …
Sep 02
I wasn’t sure what I was going to write about today. I did not want to write about my tale of woe. I am tired of hearing it, but do understand that sometimes I am going to need to get it out. But I’m tired of hearing it. I have been sharing less of it …
Sep 01
I managed to make it through yesterday and today, thanks to one of my cousins coming to visit me and keeping me occupied. That was nice, and it mostly kept my mind off of the elephant in the room. I have noticed that today I’ve developed a tremor in my right hand. Not only is …
Aug 31
The good news is that something changed for me on Thursday of last week. I may have mentioned it. It is like the sadness and grief took on another tone, one perhaps more tolerable. I say that almost not believing it, because it isn’t any constant relief, but it is at least different. I have …
Aug 30
I am not sure why but as the day progresses, I notice I get deeply depressed. Maybe it is because in the course of a day, near the end of it is when a family sits down together. For dinner, to watch television, or play games, or whatever. My body, mind, and spirit knows at …
Aug 26
As I suspected, I became very depressed last night again. It was involuntary. I was sitting there and it came over me like a wave. I really was not able to get out from in under it before I went to bed, and it is coming back now. When I wake in the morning, I …
Aug 25
So far, I have written two posts on grief and pain that I chose not to publish. I may do so one day but it isn’t necessary right now. I realize that those of you reading have chosen to read my posts, but I also know that it’s unfair to spew my emotion all over …
Jul 07
This is starting out sort of funny to me. When I got the inspiration for this article, it hit me rather hard. That was last week, and just now when I decided to write it, I no sooner got the title typed than a damn fly started buzzing my head. I didn’t even know I …