Nov 03
Ugh, I pulled today’s card and got Empathy: I am open to seeing both sides of a situation. It seems that my guidance really wants to drill into me that I am learning something here. I mean, seriously, if I were mentoring someone who was getting the messages I am getting I would say “I …
Oct 30
I did not write yesterday, and obviously I am late writing today from what I normally do. I think that is because night before last, I released a lot of emotion in a way I haven’t done so for the most part. How you ask? By talking to someone. Shaun to be exact, and while …
Oct 23
I am all over the place this morning. I woke up tired and upset, and felt like I actually had something missing in my heart chakra area. I am not sure I’ve quite felt that way yet, and so it was noticeable. I notice all sorts of subtle changes in myself on a daily basis …
Oct 22
So yesterday I had a session with my grief counselor, and today I just went to the Formula’s page to remember what the next step was, with intentions of finishing it up of course. Here’s what I found: 6. Can I accept the role that Erin has played, along with her actions, to help me …
Oct 21
I know I said that I would finish the Formula of Compassion on Erin today, but I am not sure that I can just yet. For whatever reason, it opened up a lot more emotion and I have had a hard time dealing with it. Ok, I just lied. It’s about letting go. If I …
Oct 20
This morning, I thought “I want to write!” But I had to ask myself why. It’s not so much that I have something to say. It’s more that I have to find an outlet for these overwhelming emotions that constantly bombard me. I don’t invite them in. They come uninvited and in large groups. It’s …
Oct 14
Well, I have been busy since Friday and unable to post. I tried yesterday but was kept busy by my aunt who is visiting. I come from a family of talkers, and whether she meant to or not she talked my ear off all day and left me little time to grieve. LOL! I guess …
Oct 08
I planned out today’s title as I was either trying to go to sleep, or at 5:30 this morning as I was trying to go back to sleep. I no longer remember which it was. First, let me bore you with a little grammar… A) Something that happened regularly in the past but no longer …
Oct 02
Ah! So I didn’t post anything yesterday. I honestly got started, then I forgot. I had some distractions and I guess it kept me from breaking down too much. Here is what I had started, and then got sad and stopped writing. Some days it is hard for me to really believe that Erin is …
Sep 30
There are some things about this loss that I have yet to admit, even to myself. I can feel them in there, waiting behind a curtain or something, but they just don’t come to the surface. Sometimes it’s like I have an agreement like “I can’t look at that right now, please don’t show yourself.” …