Ah, what timing. As I begin typing this, a school bus arrives with the kids from next door, and just the idea that someone’s kids are coming home is downright painful for me. But that isn’t a reality that I can get away from, and I am glad their kids are safe and home. So …
Category: Erin’s Memory
This content is about Erin Canter, my daughter who passed away at 10 years old on 8/14/14.
Sep 08
Pain to Peace Pt. 2
I am not feeling so hot right now, which is why I picked up my “pen and paper” and got right to it this morning. The second point in the Pain to Peace chapter, is called We Invite In What We Would Usually Try to Avoid. Here is the sub text: “When faced with intense …
Sep 07
Pain to Peace, Theoretically
The title, Pain to Peace, is the title of a section of the book I mentioned yesterday (Turning the Corner on Grief Street by Terri Daniel). I read the entire book by the way already. It gave me some comfort, and it was constructive. She writes it from a higher perspective, so if you are …
Sep 06
The Hike and After
Well I took no pictures of my hike. I don’t know why but I completely forgot. It was hot, and I am out of shape and thus was sweaty and out of breath when I got to the place where I knew I was going to sit for awhile. I ended up sitting in the …
Sep 06
This Morning’s Thoughts
I forgot to post this picture yesterday, but as I was leaving my reiki appointment I passed a car that had a tag saying Butterfly (in tag code anyway). The reminders are nice, because I was darn sad all day yesterday. I don’t know why one day may be better than another. I am sad …
Sep 05
Terrible Transitions
I woke up around 4am to a dream, and a headache. I think the headache was sinus related, but the dream, gave me heartache. There was more to it than I remember, but I became consciously aware in the dream when I was riding in the back of a black SUV, being chauffeured by someone …
Sep 04
And, Back…
Boy did I wake up feeling sad today. The ugly feeling is back in my heart and pit of my stomach. I managed to sleep longer, not waking up thinking about how she is gone. But once I got fully awake the feeling hit me. And I am just so, so sad. I know, or …
Sep 03
Moving Into the New
I suppose that I am moving into the new energy of this month, the upcoming full moon of 9/9, and of Me. This morning my grief therapist told me that I was taking all of the right steps to move forward and she commended me for that. I forget her exact words, but I guess …
Sep 02
The Why’s
I wasn’t sure what I was going to write about today. I did not want to write about my tale of woe. I am tired of hearing it, but do understand that sometimes I am going to need to get it out. But I’m tired of hearing it. I have been sharing less of it …
Sep 01
Unchanged, Mostly
I managed to make it through yesterday and today, thanks to one of my cousins coming to visit me and keeping me occupied. That was nice, and it mostly kept my mind off of the elephant in the room. I have noticed that today I’ve developed a tremor in my right hand. Not only is …