Sep 01
I managed to make it through yesterday and today, thanks to one of my cousins coming to visit me and keeping me occupied. That was nice, and it mostly kept my mind off of the elephant in the room. I have noticed that today I’ve developed a tremor in my right hand. Not only is …
Aug 30
I am not sure why but as the day progresses, I notice I get deeply depressed. Maybe it is because in the course of a day, near the end of it is when a family sits down together. For dinner, to watch television, or play games, or whatever. My body, mind, and spirit knows at …
Aug 28
Woke up with the elephant on my chest again. I actually woke thinking of her several times during the night. I’m not up for watching this yet today, but it is one of my favorites to show you her personality. It was done in the backseat of the van sometime this past year (2014). She …
Aug 25
I woke up this morning before the sun and thought of Erin. I was wide awake, thinking of her. For then, it was ok. I didn’t cry. I didn’t want to get myself all upset either. I wondered if she woke me up with her presence. Yesterday was hard. I have this heavy weight on …